Waking up to find another day
The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had its say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts when I think
When I let it sink in
It's all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
I'm watching you sleep, it hurts a lot
& all I know is
You've got to give me everything
Nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don't want to lose the love I've found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don't let me down
It's not fair how you are
I can't be complete, can you give me more?
& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love up for me
We can't escape the love
Give me everything that you have

& all I know is
You got to give me everything
& nothing less cause
You know I give you all of me

[CHORUS]
I give you everything that I am
I'm handin' over everything that I've got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don't ever wanna have to go & give you up
Stay up till Four In The Morning & the tears are pouring
& I want to make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time?
Baby if we're gonna do it, come on do it right

(Give you everything)
(Give you all of me)

For some reason I keep hearing this song. In Perth....esp. I think it's the first Gwen Stefani song I've really liked in a long time. =) Anyway, decided I should share it with everyone since I like it so much. hee. I've not really been listening much to music off late. Ever since I lost my Ipod part of me felt like I lost the music in my life. I think cos' the ipod meant the world to me.....losing it kinda hurt too much to want to ever replace it. So much so that I rather just not listen to music. hee.

The past few months taught me many lessons I never knew of myself. Some things are just irreplaceable in life. Just like my ipod. I will never be able to find the exact same one that would mean the world to me again. Some times I wish I wasn't human and I wouldn't make mistakes but I am...so all I can hope for is to get over them and learn from it. Never again will I EVER lose my ipod again. =)

3 and 1/2 more days before I go back...time truly flies....*sigh*

Today I drove.
 
I drove for an hour looking for lake monroe.
I think the past two times I wanted to bring Dave and Niq to the lake, we ended up driving in circles.

But I told myself, today I will find the lake...
And I did! When I drove on the bridge across the lake, I felt this wonderful sense of calmness and happiness that I found something that I lost for so long...(cos' for the longest time I couldn't remember where it was..)

Life's this incredible journey.
Sometimes you lose yourself in situations you put yourself in.
You forget who you are, what your goals are...you just forget everything important.
I realized that I need to just take a step back...slow down to 30 miles per hour, and everything seems so much better...so much clearer...

I always believed that when there are downs, there will be ups.
Though it's been a down for awhile, I know that the up will come in time.
*Cross fingers* I guess it's always good to believe.....

The sunlight reflecting on the lake today was my up for the day. =)

Sometimes you just wish time would rewind. Go back so that you'd get a 2nd chance at things.
I know I should never regret, but for the most of it, I do.
It's like how I wish I studied harder for most of my classes. hee.

So a semester's coming to an end now.

Time really flies. I am quite sad to know that very soon I'll be thrown into the arms of the 'real' world.
Painfully.

The weekend was great.
Great food, great company...great city!

Weihwa has all the photos but I will definitely upload them once she passes them to me.

Saturday morning we all had haircuts at the Red Door Salon. Finally, a decent hair salon found. I think we'll all troop there some time in summer to dye our hair. =) 

Ok, I would write more if I had the time but I got some homework to work on so ....later!

Finally....this week's HELL is over! YAY!

Tomorrow we're going off to Chicago for a weekend of fun and relaxation. I really need it.

So today I had women's health. We had a guest speaker to come talk about drunk driving. Felt so sad. His daughter and her son died cos' some drunk driver crashed into them. You could just feel the pain in his eyes. She was on her way home from his place and it was just a 4 mile drive at 3pm in the afternoon. The worse part is, the drunk driver went from 38 years in jail, to 3 and 1/2 years only (due to appeals and "good" behavior.) At the end of it, he bearly felt much remorse. No sorry. Nothing. 

After that I realized how important it is to always stay safe. Not just for yourself, but for your family. The pain of losing a love one is really something that's out of the world and totally unbearable. 

Last week at women's health, my teacher got an ex druggie to come in and talk to us. I think this class is really interesting. Sitting there for 2 hours plus really isn't that unbearable...except when people start raising their hands every 2 mins, making really stupid comments. Last week, my teacher only managed to get through 4 slides in 1 hour. And it was the same 2 girls making all the stupid comments. 

Ok...enough ranting. =) 

Will post up nice photos after this weekend! heehee...

I have had 7hours of sleep between two nights.
This is called serious lack of good rest.
My head's not comfortable and all I want to do is slack.

This is the point in my life where I just wish i could sit still on the couch all day and let the world pass me by.

On another note, I have never been one who gives much shit about results...esp school results.
I never did well in school...don't think I ever will... but I've always had a strong belief that I would excel in everything else to make up for all the bad results. (Hence the job and the horrible amount of school activities.)
Unfortunately, after hanging out with over achievers, I'm starting to feel the pinch of not being exam/book smart.
In the past, I had Lynn to assure me that studies really isn't everything in life.
Now, I'm left alone in a world of academically excellent people and I sometimes wish I could do as well as them.
I wish that I could read fast and efficiently.
I wish I could memorize everything and understand everything.
I wish I didn't need to take 3 times the amount of effort before I can even get a decent grade.

I'm guessing all the brains went to my brother.

For the most of it, I know that I'm just different and exams will never be my forte. But still. I guess you always want what you can't get. =)

Can't wait for this weekend to come..... REALLY.....

Hellohello!

Haven't blogged much just cos' I haven't really had the time to.
My parents were here for the week after Spring Break and on Friday, Leanne came to visit!
I'm super stressed cos' there's tons of things to do with no time at all.
*sigh*

On another note, I just wanna say....I LOVE THE WII. My brother is my HERO. Two thumbs up to Nintendo! =)

I was just reflecting back on my past relationship and my present and I realized something really important, that it really takes two hands to clap.

It takes two to make the relationship work. Both sides must want it as much as each other before it would truly work out.

I've been used to getting my way all the time and not considering the other person's feelings...now I need to learn not to be so selfish and to accomodate others as well. That's the only way my relationships would work out. If I put in effort into it. Now with Dave, I realized that I need to work for what I want. I need to put in effort to make my other half happy and myself as well....and not just expect things to go my way all the time.

The experiences from my past and present do shape my future....

I hope I learnt from my mistakes...I hope this really works out...=)

Love you lots! *hugz*

Ok, I'm not sure what day is this...but anyway, we left SF for LA!

Drove down along highway 1. Pretty view all the way. Definitely better than all the corn fields. haha... We stopped by monetery for lunch, drove through to pebble beach to enjoy the view. Had some tea there before leaving for Carmel. We stayed over at Carmel. Probably will be here for another night before heading down to LA tomorrow!

In LA, my mum's friend is going to hang and chill w us. Sunday we're leaving for B town!

I have loads of photos so I'll post them up when I reach Btown. Easier....

3 more days before I see Dave! Excited....=)

Location: Morgan Hill - Comfort Hill

Today we spent it in the car. We basically drove from Las Vegas to Gilroy (Near San Jose). My brother drove and I tried to keep him awake.

Hence, I didn't really get to sleep. What sucks is that I didn't get to sleep well the day before. Ugh.

Anyway, we drove through deserts and mountains. It was quite a cool drive. Unfortunately, due to bad traffic jams, we didn't reach SF as planned. We're still around an hour away.

Nothing much really happened. I guess the most interesting thing that happened was that the sky looked as if there were UFOs flying around. I'll post up the pictures of my UFOs soon. Heehee.